Start of It!

Well, been really long time I last blog... Start to realise that actually is nice to write down the initial feeling or moments which going thru now.. cause is geniue.. So I should start to build a habbit of writing it down.. hehe..

Been feeling rather tired and busy these days.. Not busy with work of course, but preparation of my "Big Day". Seen so far but yet so near!! So much things to do and got to bother about expectations of old Folks. Haiz.. All these while wanted it to be simple, it seems not to be 2 persons issue lo.. Well, I can dun bother, but... I do want to respect them and want them to feel happy for me too!!!!
Ok.. Let everything focus back to God! Things not as complicated and difficult.. Yes i can overcome it.. Yeah!!!

Is easy to remember but hard to forget

Keith just asked me... how come after 3 weeks I still didn't let it go?? And surprises him is that, I still behaved so happy everyday.... hmm.... I guess wound doesn't recover so fast ba. Don't you realise that is easy to remember something but not easy to forget. We can use alot of methods to remember something.. but how many methods are there to forget? Unless I got amnesia lo.. I guess it apply to everyone ba. But I really think I'm doing fine now. I'm stronger and moving on. Thank God for giving me the strength.

* Is really good to have record this down... as i know when I look back next time... what I have gone thru is just so real.

Another painful night

Didn't have a good sleep last night. I put down the phone with her around 2am. After the conversation, i really can't get back to sleep. Feel really sad and worry for her. The last time I ever heard her crying painful voice was about 10 yrs back. Wanted so much to help her but i know the most i can do is to only console her. There is no way I can understand the pain and saddness in her though I sound so experienced.

我常常认为爱人比被爱幸福。But after so many incidents happening around me, i started to have doubt with this quote of mine. Guess the pain and hurt we get is much greater. Sigh!!! I just pray that God will ease her pain. Give her the courage to face the current situation now. Quickly recover and move on! I'm waiting to see the sunshine gal again.

原来爱情这么伤！

Moving On

Has been 3 weeks since we have broke up. Saddness and pain seems to be have reduced as days passed. I thank God for giving me the strength and courage to move on my life. Life now seems to be more colourful as I have the spare time to do whatever things I feel like doing now. But somehow, I know something is missing there. As my feeling for him doesn't seems to reduce. I'm still concern for him, wondering how he is getting everyday. Is he happier now? Does he get enough of sleep everyday? Slap!!! Time to wake up! No point to think of all these now. I don't think he will bother about me rite???? Don't cry because it's over, but happy because it happened. I should feel happy that I find out the truth. I keep telling myself, treasure what I have now. I should feel contented that I have parents who love me, many close friends who care for me. Move On Xinyi!!!! I can do it!!!!!! Now I'm learning to love myself more.

Positive thinking

Has been feeling rather down recently.... Whatever things I do, or think seems so negative to me. Somehow feel that everything just went wrong. Is it that everyone will feel the same way once in a while or just only me??? Now when I really sit down and sit think about it... It seems like I have been wasting so much time feeling so down and miserable. And nothing has been done or improved. I understand why alot of people chose to write blog. Because it is actually a way of venting out your anger, unhappiness or even happy events!!!! I guess that way of expressing out is rather helpful.

Well, I'm a person who will just keep everything by myself... and in the end.. I realised.. I'm actually turning round and round, not getting to anywhere. In life, there is so much for us to learn. My new resolution for yr 2008 will be .... Learning to be more expressive. Well.. i seem to has alot of resolutions for this yr. The most important thing is.. To get back the cheerful side of me!!!!!

I become a blogger!!!!

Hoo...Finally has a blog of myself..... I used to wonder.. y so ppl like to post their blog online???
Isn't it suppose to be something personally??? In the past, ppl used to write down all their thoughts on a book.. which we called "Diary". Hmm... I only remembered writing it when I was primary 6.. which was no choice leh.. Must hand in to teacher one... But I did enjoyed writing it as I will really get excited about the comments my english teacher wrote on it. Of course.. wat i wrote on the diary meant wat I feel lor... that's y.. i troubled about the comments... I guess tat's the reason y.. ppl are posting their blog online ba.... So.... ppl who are reading this... u know wat to do huh... :) ............................
I become a blogger!!!!!!!!!